Seattle 150, or Rainy Days Are Here For the Time Being

I found a magic book last night. It was almost the best part of the evening, which began when Secret Agent Lover Man and I decided to schlep our weary tushes down to my favorite Thai place(at least, my favorite Thai place in my neighborhood - like many Seattleites, I have a favorite Thai place in just about every neighborhood.)

It had been raining most of the day - most of the week, actually. I'd worked too many night shifts to know what a normal sleep cycle felt like anymore, and had spent most of the day in bed developing that thick, musty, sleepy feeling. We walked through the ravine, breathing mist and evergreens, steadying each other down the steep, muddy stairs. Dinner was bright and tasty. How I love this part of a relationship - the introduction of my loves to my beloved. We've been trading favorite restaurants and stacks of books and music for weeks.

After dinner, the plan was to go home and start sorting through piles of junk in preparation for the big packing project, but SALM discovered a gift card to the bookstore in his wallet, and tempted me with a diversion. How could I say no?

It says something about us both that we almost immediately went to the children/young adult section. We browsed the aisles, pointing books out to one another, stepping over little kids and preteens, sprawled across the floor. Then SALM saw a graphic novel version of The Little Prince and picked it up, announcing "I think I need to read this right now." I grinned. And then he said "And I think you need to read this right now."

He had handed me a book. "Hereville: How Mika Got Her Sword" was the title. And, in smaller letters, just above it: "Yet Another Troll-Fighting 11-Year-Old Orthodox Jewish Girl."

I followed him to a carpeted spot between two giant wooden trees in the children's area, where we settled against the wall to begin reading. Soon, we were giggling, poking each other, pointing out great lines and images. "Hereville" is one of the only children's books I've ever seen that deals with Orthodox Judaism in a way that neither heroizes nor villianizes the culture and practices of observant Jews - rather establishes a kind of normality that shows the different oppressive and empowering parts of growing up in an Orthodox household. Mika, for example, is frustrated with her 14-year-old sister's constant moaning about finding a husband, but acknowledges that her sister's view isn't so different from the adults around her.

On the other hand, Mika's not-so-evil stepmother, Fruma, forces Mika to constantly argue both sides of any issue by playing devil's advocate at the drop of a hat. "You want to fight dragons?" she asks at one point. "How could you kill any of Hashem's creatures?" When Mika admits that Fruma has a point, Fruma then cries "You would let a dragon come to this town and eat your poor defenseless stepmother and do nothing?" Eventually, Mika becomes a skilled enough debater to - well, you'll find out what she does with it once you read it.

It was one of those books I finished with a laugh and sigh, and held close to my chest when I was done. And next to me, my Secret Agent Lover Man closed The Little Prince (one of his childhood favorites) and did the exact same thing. We looked at each other knowing there wasn't any other way we'd have rather spent the evening - and how so few of our friends would've felt the same way.

And that was magic.

Seattle 149, or Lacing Up My Traveling Boots

I know the saying doesn't go exactly like this, but sometimes, in the grayest parts of winter, a young poet's thoughts turn to getting the hell out of Dodge. This winter has brought a difficult mixture of delight and tsuris, often both in the same hour. This causes some serious mood whiplash, as you can imagine.

My dearly beloved home, the Ravenna Kibbutz, is shifting. All four of us in House Gimel are moving out on March 1st, and whether the organization will continue as just House Aleph (aka Beit Kayam aka Ecohouse) remains to be seen. Either way, it's most likely that my house will be gone and my community much dimished when I return.

Return from what, exactly?

Oh yes. Remember the part where last year, I nearly got my book published? And then found another publisher who would publish my book? Do you remember the part where that publishing company turned out to be a little meshuggah and threw me for a tailspin of doubts about whether the thing would be published at all, and I changed jobs and got three new housemates and a new interest of the romantic persuasion?

Oh, you say, it's apparently been awhile.

Here's the basics: I'm going on tour again, much like I did during the summer of '08. Except this time, when I return to Seattle, I'll have a whole lot more for when I left. Like a job. And friends. And the aforementioned interest, who has decided to take the name (for blogging purposes) of Secret Agent Lover Man. He is a captivating sort, and has proved himself to be a champion Scrabble player, a charmer of kids and babies, a voracious reader, and collector of jokes. These, among other qualities, present the makings of a damn good time.

Ah, but yes, touring. Buses and trains and hopefully, gigs. Would you like me to come read poems at your school/synagogue/church/youth group/living room? Do let me know. I'd love to stop by. The current plan looks like this:

Seattle, WA

Columbus, OH (the Women of the World Poetry Slam is a convenient launch point)

Pittsburgh, PA

Washington DC

Philadelphia, PA

Boston, MA

Northampton, MA

Various towns in Bergen County, NJ

...and from there, I've got at least another week free until Passover, which I will spend with my family before returning to Seattle by May 1.

Charlotte 2, or Another Poem from iWPS: Poem-a-day #346

The housekeeper at my hotel room door
is trying to tell me something.
She points to my unmade bed,
the freshly stacked towels,
says she is sorry the sheets
are still pulled back and rumpled.
I start to tell her it's okay, no problem,
de nada, when the Albanian poet
speaks up:
she's saying she didn't make your bed
because you left your pajamas on it,
and she won't touch your personal things.
And now, translation's grateful wake of smiles
passes through the room, and I tell
the housekeeper not to worry.
As the door closes, the Albanian rocks
her baby close, and explains
I speak immigrant.
I do, too. But I speak the kind
of a man with a foreign engineering degree
pacing Manhattan with the kind of hunger
it takes to feed a family.
It's true, sometimes, what they say
about our own kind.
Another Jew hired him, took a chance
on the greenhorn, saw him
through his night school master's degree.
The humble language of service,
of people's rumpled and unwashed selves,
is one I was never expected to learn;
my door, a threshold
of Babel.

Charlotte 1, or Poem from iWPS

It's been a great two nights here in Charlotte. The poetry quality is high, and the competition has been full of surprises. I've gotten to spend time with many of my usual suspects, and some newer friends, who've come to the forefront in others' absences. And now, Poem-a-day #345:

Sometimes, I forget: many poets
don't know I can sing.
And the kids I teach don't know
that I struggle through the same
assignments I bring to their table.
And then Claire picks up her banjo
and begins to practice
on the edge of our beds,
filling the spaces between
the day's many, many words.
It is the most beautiful kind of
noise, this time of day.
I never believed my mother
when she told me she loved
to hear my piano mistakes
over and over again
from the next room.
Claire stops a lot,
and sometimes sighs
at herself like a swear word.
She apologizes for the mistakes,
and I think of my mother,
chopping onions in time to
halted Chopin preludes,
begging me to keep going
when the timer went off.

Somewhere over Minnesota 1, or We Really Live in the Future

So, I write this from a plane, which makes it a little hard to tell where I am, because the clouds are in the way. In yet another moment brought to you by We Live In The Future, Now, I am on a plane, on the internet, for free. Seriously.

Anyway, I've been traveling again, which means it's time to blog! I flew down from Seattle to San Francisco on Sunday, and happily bounced around from D's new house (complete with three delightful, warm, welcoming housemates) to visiting beloved cousins J and A up at their house on the big hill in Santa Rosa.

My first night in the Bay area, I went to a small house show that seemed a lot like the Kibbutz's montly Coffeehouse - friends gathering to share artistic work and get feedback. One thing this show did differently was require artists to ask for exactly what kind of feedback they wanted. One person showed video clips of her new clowning act. Another did a monologue about her new one-woman show, still in the research phases. I read a few poems. We ate salmon and greens and tabouli, and talked about heady art things. I haven't had such an abstract conversation since college, I think, but I enjoyed it.

I did a small house show at J&A's place, which is uniquely suited for poetry house shows - it's really as much an art space as it is a house, thanks to A, who has spent the last couple of decades in paint, jewelry and sculpture. About five of their friends came over to nosh, drink, and hear from "J's young cousin, who's passing through town and reciting poems." I got to read a whole bunch from the Raizl/Rachel series, as well as some smaller work - less of the big slam stuff. They loved it. I loved it. Honestly, I love performing to people my parents' age. There's something about that generation - they're so unjaded about poetry, so completely unsullied by expectation. Or rather, their expectations are so incredibly low that I can be sure I'll surprise them in a good way.

Next up: Charlotte, NC, where I'll be volunteering at the Individual World Poetry Slam. Take advantage of the time change, loves - give me a call!

(this entry has been Posted From An Airplane. Seriously. Seriously.)

Seattle 148, or And It's Beginning to...

When it snows in Seattle, the collective head comes off and the proverbial (and actual) chickens start running around. Or, rather, people turn into idiots. Real idiots. Idiots who would try to gun it up a hill that's covered in ice with cars close in front of them. Idiots who don't know how to control a skid. Idiots who don't have chains for their tires, don't own snowboots, and seem to think sledding is best done when wildly intoxicated.

The roads are closed. There are no snowplows. There is no salt or sand, or that disgusting organic molasses byproduct that got really popular in Massachusetts one year. In any self-respecting temperate climate, this would be a non-issue. The snow stopped around 2am - it could've been cleared by 5. But it wasn't. Because there are no g-ddamn plows.

I worked a 14 hour emergency shift, because I could walk to work instead of relying on the buses. It took one of my cowokers six hours to make her 20 minute commute. A new client was dropped off at 2am because the highway turned into a parking lot. The school expects at least two, maybe three snowdays from this.

I'm not leaving the house until I have to. I've got my nice cozy fire going, and promises of rice pudding, and I will leave the insanity where it is, thank you.

But I will say this: there is something wonderful about a pink sky over snowy evergreens, and the companionable silence that comes from empty roads.

Seattle 147, or Ode to Joy

When the rain comes like a cold scolding, I do my best to brighten the kitchen.

(or, as this case may be, an ode to my father)

(can't claim these - they're Joel's. But I know how to make them.)

(Skagit River Ranch bacon is the only kind I've ever had that beat Oscar's.)

(purple cauliflower! who knew?)

(Apple and onion pie, inspired by Laura Ingalls Wilder.)

Seattle 146, or A Joke to Share

I had a moment somewhat like this, recently.

After months of negotiation with the authorities, a Talmudist from Odessa was finally granted permission to visit Moscow. He boarded the train and found an empty seat. At the next stop, a young man got on and sat next to him.

The scholar looked at the young man and he thought: This fellow doesn’t look like a peasant, so if he is no peasant he probably comes from this district. If he comes from this district, then he must be Jewish because this is, after all, a Jewish district. But on the other hand, since he is a Jew, where could he be going? I’m the only Jew in our district who has permission to travel to Moscow.

Ahh, wait! Just outside Moscow there is a little village called Samvet, and Jews don’t need special permission to go to Samvet. But why would he travel to Samvet? He is surely going to visit one of the Jewish families there.

But how many Jewish families are there in Samvet? Aha, only two – the Bernsteins and the Steinbergs. But since the Bernsteins are a terrible family, so such a nice looking fellow like him, he must be visiting the Steinbergs. But why is he going to the Steinbergs in Samvet? The Steinbergs have only daughters, two of them, so maybe he’s their son-in-law. But if he is, then which daughter did he marry? They say that Sarah Steinberg married a nice lawyer from Budapest, and Esther married a businessman from Zhitomer, so it must be Sarah’s husband. Which means that his name is Alexander Cohen, if I’m not mistaken.

But if he came from Budapest, with all the anti-Semitism they have there, he must have changed his name. What’s the Hungarian equivalent of Cohen? It is Kovacs. But since they allowed him to change his name, he must have special status to change it. What could it be? Must be a doctorate from the University. Nothing less would do.

At this point, therefore, the scholar of Talmud turns to the young man and says, “Excuse me. Do you mind if I open the window, Dr. Kovacs?”

“Not at all,” answered the startled co-passenger, “But how is it that you know my name?”

“Ahhh,” replied the Talmudist, “It was obvious.”

Seattle 145, or Poem-a-day #309

Raizl, Forhenwald, Bavaria, 1945

The Red Cross worker
says, in halting Polish,
“Don’t you like the soup?
It’s not my mother’s,
but at least the meat is real.”

How can Raizl explain?

Meal after meal,
she sits, clutching her spoon,
eating less than a bite,
naming the pieces of food:
this one is Aleksy,
(he loved potatoes)
this pepper, Elzbieta,
(who we called Erzi,
because she was Hungarian,
and moaned
that our food had no taste)
this piece of meat,
Jaga, gone,
just after the liberation,
as though she knew
her work was done.

“Maybe it’s too hot?”
says the Red Cross woman,
reaching to touch the side
of Raizl’s tin bowl.
When she finds it cold,
she shakes her head.
“Look at yourself!
You need to eat something;
you look like you just
came out of the camps!”

Raizl imagines
pinching a piece of meat
between her thumb and forefinger,
touching it to Aleksy’s lips,
leaving a meatgrease kiss.
They were all so hungry.

Seattle 144, or Cider House

When I got the invitation, I almost squealed out loud. A cider pressing, in the next neighborhood over, at the brightly painted co-op. Bring your apples - your bruised, your half-eaten, your yearning to be crushed and poured and savored. E had a rickety old press, borrowed from yet another co-op, which featured a PVC pipe for a crank and so little glue we sometimes held it together with our knees.

When I arrived, groaning bag slung over my back, I found the beginnings of an assembly line. I slipped in to share a cutting board, grabbed a knife from the wall, followed the labeled cabinets to a towel and colander, washed my apples and joined the group. A child sat at the table, doing math problems. Her mother sat next to her, knife in hand, talking and tossing cores into a bowl. We chopped until we filled the stock pot - big enough to bathe in, it came nearly to my hip.

Dinner materialized when it got dark - the long kitchen table slowly moved from apples to potluck - beet salad and fresh bread, my sundried tomato-walnut pesto over pasta, ghost-shaped cookies, banana muffins. The house was full, and noisy, everything spilling over. I took a break from the press, prowled the common rooms of the house, let the surroundings tickle me: a bathroom sink, disconnected from its pipes so the water dropped straight into a bucket to be used for flushing the toilet. A labeled cabinet by the front door reading "extra blankets." Copies of letters written to company heads and political figures. The hall table with the blank name tags and jar full of markers, with specific instructions to include one's preferred pronoun. The hall telephone with the sticker "this phone has been tapped by order of the US Patriot Act." The jerryrigged feat of a kitchen.

It turned out that only E and I knew how to use the press - how to dump the chopped apples into the hopper, grind them down and then use the wooden paddle, the giant screw, and the apples' own weight to press until juice ran in sweet, thin rivulets into the bucket. Each cycle took about twenty minutes from start to finish. I remembered the cider party at Red Truck, the honey harvests from my childhood, Apple Days when visiting Marlboro. This party had the same harvest joy, the sticky hands of plenty.

After three nonstop hours of pressing, we had about five gallons - not counting the stuff we'd drunk in celebration or sent home with people. Most of it went into the basement - E wanted to experiment with fermenting it. I walked home with a mason jar of cider cradled in my sweater, sweet, grimy fingers, delight at seeing my breath. Autumn, indeed. Who needs foliage when there's cider and early sunsets?